Used to hearing all the gossip, annoying opinions, and bad reviews about this whole thing...
Feels like the world’s watching every move: lowkey judging w/ a tiny smirk.
But on the flip side: intuition be hella loud.
Ever get that something’s off vibe? Same. Try to ignore it, but that feeling’s always there, like background noise you just can’t mute.
Wanna prove to myself: still can be open, still can feel heavy stuff but it makes life colorful. Sometimes I straight-up ignore the warning signs. Red flags blur out, brain knows it all, but heart’s like: let’s roll anyway...
Honestly, short fuse, dramatic at times, but then chill mode kicks in. Just observing, staying aware, thinking what am I even doing?
Also, not always wise—
Sometimes dumb, sometimes slip up, but self-awareness is like a tiny armor. Or intentionally reckless sometimes, testing limits.
At least I know boundaries, so I don’t go fully lost.
Who doesn’t wanna be loved for real?! Not the messy, pain-bringing kind (like sneaky side stuff for a years lol). Simple, damn!
Friends throwing advice: bro, this ain’t worth it...
Yeah, they right. Sometimes gotta walk solo to actually learn. Don’t wanna mess up again. Past mistakes? Harsh reminders: be careful, but don’t over-paranoid either. Past exp taught me: don’t get too attached to someone who doesn’t respect you at all. Painful, but necessary lesson...
Risks exist, and that’s life. Kinda funny, but also relief: you don’t feel anything new, but that’s fine.
Best part?
Idk, suddenly not feeling w/ you… hush!
Can’t go further. Just the vibe, emitting the feels—fr, nothing else matters in that moment.
Stupid, really… i know!